How I Really Feel About Instagram

Dun, dun, dun…

Lol – no, but seriously either you love or hate Instagram. Or you love it and hate it at the same time (yes, that’s possible lol).

At times, it can make us feel inspired, happy, give us an outlet to share or find community. But at the other end of the spectrum it can make us feel stressed, overwhelmed or inferior. It’s crazy how a few little squares on a pixel screen can make us feel so stressed!

For awhile I was stressing myself out because I needed to shoot content that was “cohesive” or “insta-worthy” which, like, what does that even mean anyway? In the grand scheme of things, it’s not about you – it’s about serving your community in whatever way you deem fit.

It got me thinking…

Wait, so what’s the REAL reason I started this little journey…

For me, I show up on Instagram to share and connect with likeminded girls.

Why? Because no one warned me about my early twenties and how they can feel confusing, and lonely and.. scary. Two years ago, I packed up everything I had, moved to the city and knew no one (well, besides Billy haha).

Honestly, I was just trying to figure out how to adult.

How to not owe the IRS money at the end of the year, what the hell a health care plan meant and how to choose the right coverage, and how to friggin stop getting parking tickets. Oh, and how to balance: work, my relationship, friendships while maintaining my sanity and having enough money to get a freakin’ carmel macchiato at Starbucks on the 14th day of the month because I didn’t get paid until the 15th. Okay? okay.

I was in my first job out of college, commuting 1+ hours each way, getting home in the pitch black and just felt: STUCK / TRAPPED / ALL OF THE FREAKING ABOVE?! Can I get an amen.

On the weekends, all I wanted to do was catch up on house work or unwind, plus… Honestly, I didn’t have any friends to meet up with in the city for brunch or shopping or coffee. I didn’t go to a city school so I didn’t have a network of people in Philly built up, none of my friends had moved out yet, and here I was sitting in my apartment wondering HOW CAN I FREAKIN’ EXPRESS MYSELF AND FIND GIRLS THAT FEEL THE WAY I DO.

But, after starting this little blog I’ve met some pretty freakin’ amazing girls that have turned into REAL friendships. Girls that I confide in, girls that I’ve found community in. Women who empower and root each other on, and make REAL impact in each other’s lives. Ones that share exciting ideas and push each other along, all while picking each other up when staying committed can feel like a task in it of itself.

I show up to connect.

So yes, my reason for starting this little blog was to have a creative outlet, find something I was passionate about outside of my career or Billy or anything else.

But I really started this to find community, to connect, to get inspired and be inspiring to others. That’s the reason I stick around when Instagram can feel overwhelming or tedious or what-have-you. I stick around because it’s made such a positive impact on my life.

Social media can be a beautiful thing, if you let it.

I’ve had an opportunity to work with brands like: Pandora, Charlotte Russe, and The Body Shop that I grew up with as a teenager wearing! It’s so crazy and full circle to me – I’m not saying that to brag or come off showy… but it is seriously the wildest feeling. Mostly because I didn’t get into this to do any of that – sure, on the surface level I may have had those fantasies or dreams of “what would it be like to collaborate with a big brand”.

But when I really reflect on it… I started this journey out of a feeling of “stuck-ness” – I wanted more for myself. I wanted to find a passion, find community, find girls who I could connect with on a different level than just going to the bar every Friday night.

Okay, I will end my rambling here – I hope that this helped some of you feel a little bit less stressed about the ‘gram and get back to why you started in the first place.




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